The Night I Spent 5 hours on the Phone

11:32 | 11.06.05 Lengthy Conversations on the phone.

That's like a bit abnormal. Don't you think. It's like, how often do we get to do this? I think it's safe to say that it's normal to chat on the phone for a good 20 minutes or so.. but to hang on the line for hours and hours?

"Hantu Gayut"
Are you calling me that?

Fact is, last night I had spent 5 hours or so talking on the phone with a dear friend in distress. It wasn't my intention. It wasn't planned. Neither of us had seen it coming since we were not in "talking terms" for like months. I was even surprised with myself that I managed to press 'answer' on my mobile, when I saw my dear friend's name flicker on that little screen.
But it happened. Some things can appear to be so strange that I'm finding it hard to really describe it in detail..

So, why do we feel we can talk for hours on the phone when a quick visit to really see the person is always a better solution? I don't know, to be exact. But after talking into the wee hours of this morning, as well as suffering from 'earburn' (pls dont check the dictionary for this word), I have found that both of us needed the long chat. Life can be so grim & grey sometimes that we always have to search for another 'understanding & trustworthy' being to educate us as well as hear us out. It's comforting to know that each time, we are able to ease out some pain when there exists 'that' somebody on the other end of the line. Depending on each person's tolerance level, we tend to let out plenty steam at one go. I suppose it'll be much more different if we were in some kind of 'stable relationship - then it would've been a case of "Sayang, U dengar tak apa I cakap ni.. I stress ni tauuu..." ;))

Hence,
who is this 'understanding & trustworthy' being then? Can we buy one at the mall?
One of our topics last night was that - I was told I seldom feel the sense of responsibility in my own actions.. which in turn, I asked.. where exactly can I buy "responsibility'? I wanna get it fixed into my system, so that I can be a better person that u feel I needed to be. Is it sold in pharmacies?

Of course not.

But my guess is on a daily basis, without us realising it, we do look out for this typical person. We know our dearest friends. We do understand how our own soulmate thinks, acts and supports us. We look up to our favourite uncles & aunties for their wisdom. In fact, there are many characters in our lives that can become the U&TB. It's important to note that wherever we feel this being can be, one thing is certain - we can never rely on the wrong sources, because we can never know where it might have lead us to. Which brings me to the point of analysing us humans. Which part of us is 'really' the sensible one - the one that always provides us with the right & fitting solutions to the diversified problems that we face in the many instances of our own lives, as well as the lives of those dearest to us.

I see the imprints of our Creator in many of us. I see the beauty of it all, in the many good things that I can feel in and around a person. To me, we are who we are today, because of where we went in the days that had passed. Also, we can be who we want us to be, if we were given the exact spectacle that our Creator have used to create this whole universe. "Can I buy those glasses from somewhere?"

So.
Last night I do believe that amidst the many other plans I made (which of course didnt turn up to happen), I was brought to this so called 'platform' of the meetings of the minds - & it was all the work of the Almighty. He made it easier for my dear friend to 'ease out' and made me become the 'comforting' voice and play my role as the U&TB. -at least for a good 2-3 hrs in that long chat.

Life can be as beautiful as we want it to be. Just don the right attire, and let attitude and prejudice be left out.